Summer means Fun

It’s the time of the year that everyone you know seems to be going on holiday or are very close to going on holiday. Am I jealous? Hell yes!! Who does not want to go on a lads holiday (yes I know I’m not male but a lads holiday sounds so much better than a girls holiday!)

I feel like a drinking holiday with your friends is something that needs to be done; it is just one of them rituals, a right of passage.

In-between the end of sixth form and going to university seems to everyone the ideal time to go and looking bad, I would most defiantly agree with that, as now I have finished my first year of university it feels like all I am doing is saving for when I go back!! If I am not saving so that I can pay my rent, I am saving for books for my course (why, why, why did I pick a bloody expensive course!) or I am saving so that I will be able to survive when I am at university, let’s face it can’t give up on the nightlife.

Let me tell you, this ‘saving’ business is not nice, I am working my bum off and by that I mean doing a seven day week last week. It is a bloody good job I love working there or my life would be almost unbearable (melodramatic I know). But seriously after a very stressful shift all I want to do is treat myself, I am not very good at stopping myself having a sneaky look on the Warehouse website, in my defence all they do is e-mail me, how am I expected to stay off the website when they tell me about all their offers? I am after all only human after all.

Anyway I am a true believer of everything happening for a reason so not having my holiday with my friends this year is not the end of the world but I just have to hope that things will be different next year and people will be able to afford to have an experience that will make their summers (and hopefully their lives (wishful thinking I know)).

So here’s my point even though I am not going on a drinking holiday I still want this summer to be one of the best summers I have had. I have so much to look forward to nights out with the girls, my birthday and READING!!

Yes I need to stop complaining about the holiday I am not going on as I am going to Reading festival but honestly this is most defiantly an amazing second best! I am already excited thinking about it and I can’t wait to write about it as I am very sure some classy things will happen that need to be shared.

So everyone make the most out of the summer, it really is the best season.

And girls take note I want a holiday next year ……

Awkward silence? Who needs that when you have your Girlies

I like every other girl like to tell my girls everything from boys to make up. There are not many people that know as much about me as my girlies do. Although I am a private person that likes to keep people from knowing my business but these people I do not minding knowing everything good and bad about me. But once something happens to break that trust in them how can everything be the same.

Recently something happened, someone said something and this has made me doubt how much of a friend someone is to you, where their loyalties lie and can I really trust them with my secrets. I know friendship is not all about being able to keep secrets; in my opinion it’s about being there for each other, spending time together when you can just sit and not talk for hours because there is no awkward silence and having a laugh together.

Yes I admit I am not the best person at keeping in regular contact with all my friends all the time. If that makes me a bad friend then think what you may, but if they needed me no matter what time of the day or what it was they needed I would do my very best to do what I could for them.

So I am stuck in the situation where I am unsure if to tell them I know what they have done or to just forget about it. I do not like conflict, if it is very necessary then it is acceptable but I would rather not be involved in an argument over silly things.

Just to state I may have just said that I do not want to argue over silly things but I have no idea if this issue I am in is a ‘silly thing’ or not. I don’t want to end a friendship because I am over reacting.

Although I may be over reacting by feeling totally betrayed by the whole thing I feel that I need them to tell me why they did what they did. They would be a fool to think that I would not find out what they did.

At the end of the day I would rather have a few friends I would trust with my life than lots and lots of friends that don’t care about me.